So the way that I deal with loss, stress and anxiety is to organise and clean everything.
Having Asperges syndrome has always been a pain in my behind.
I have the obsessive time keeping the worst, I’m very aware that I do this and that I cause stress to myself and others around me (thank god my parents didn’t disown me and my husband married me).
But I have lost a lot of people in my life due to me being hard to deal with, or me just not understanding other peoples emotions.
I found this the hardest part of our journey so far.
I have very few friends. I rely whole heartedly on the few I have, my husband and my family.
When the losses started I didn’t know how to deal with it so I closed off to everyone except my husband. I put on a brave face and cleaned.
You know what Mrs Hinch honestly saved me 🤦🏻♀️🤯.
I cleaned every part of our old farm house in our little village as I tried to scrub away the loss.
Which I’m very aware cannot be done.
But it is very therapeutic.
The life of a rainbow mum🌈 